"I love you. I am here."
These words came to me today during my morning meditation. I was struggling with an on-going issue with my mom and was feeling alone, like I had to fend for myself. I was feeling helpless and disappointed. At first I thought I was disappointed in her, which I am, but then I realized that I was also disappointed with myself (since basically all our emotions directed outward towards other people are a reflection of our inner emotions towards ourselves). I didn't know what to do. Then the words, "I love you and I am here for you" came to me. I immediately felt better -- cared for, protected, loved. And the more I repeated those words in my head, which was multiple times, my sadness, helplessness, and disappointment evaporated. I felt powerful, strong, and living in love again (instead of fear, where I had been when I started the meditation).
When you are upset, feeling alone, and feeling helpless, those emotions bubbling up are really a cry from your spirit that it's time for you to be there for you. It's time for you to stand up for yourself, in whatever way you need at the time. It's time for you to show your support for yourself.
You see, we have all the love and support within ourselves that we'll ever need. We ARE pure love. We just forget that from time to time as life comes at us and circumstances pop up. We are fully capable of giving ourselves the love and support we think we need others to give us.
When we are feeling alone, it's important to remind ourselves that we are never alone. (I don't mean that as creepy as it sounds.) We are always with ourselves. And within each of us is the entire Universe and all the love that entails.
The next time you are feeling lost, alone, or unloved, try this: Go to a quiet place (the best you can find with your circumstances at the time). Close your eyes if possible, or if not, that's fine too. Then direct your attention inward. Focus on your spirit or your heart. Repeat the words, "I love you. I am here." Over and over and over until you start to feel your heart warming. You'll tap into the love of the Universe and reclaim your position in that love. You'll realize you are not alone and that you already are all the love you need. This may take just a few seconds, or several minutes. But once you feel better -- back to your true, loving self again -- open your eyes and move forward from that place of love and strength.
You ARE strong.
You ARE love.
You ARE capable of handling whatever steps in your path. It's there for a reason. You needed this reminder to get back in tune with your own inner love and power.
I realized that, too, once I got myself back into a place of love. At first I was angry with my mom. How could she do that to me? (I was taking everything personally.) How could she be that way? (I was also being very judgmental.) But then I accepted it for what it is. I thanked the Universe for the experience. I realized I needed that experience to learn that I can stand up for myself and I don't have to be a doormat. I have since decided on a couple changes that I can make that I feel good about. I can't change my mom. She'll continue to do what she does. But the key is learning how to accept her as she is and at the same time standing in my own truth and living in love. Love for myself. Love for her. Just love.
I'm still working on it. We're all a work in progress. But for now, I am thankful for yet another experience guiding me along my path, another lesson I needed to learn.
I love you. I am here.
Quotes of the Day:
"Your secret blessing is that no matter where you go in time and space, you only ever have to be yourself -- as courageous, vulnerable, bold, or afraid as you may feel -- to find yourself amongst friends. So loved." (tut.com)
"When you understand why something hurts, it stops hurting. When you understand you have options, you take action. And when you understand you have wings, you can soar again. If it's still hurting, fly anyway!" (tut.com)
"What's the scariest thing in the world? Forgetting how much you're loved." (tut.com)